As a few of you may know, I was recently in hospital.
I woke up one morning with the worst cramps I had ever experienced.
They got steadily worse, until eventually I had to go to hospital. These were no ordinary cramps.
In the waiting room, after being initially checked over, I lay there with a drip in my arm, fearing the worst. Cancer and death were my main thoughts, pushing their way to the front as if to say, “Hi! It’s great to meet you!”
But thankfully, the ultrasound revealed the source of my pain. A cyst.
I won’t go into specifics, but it was in a place where removing it could potentially have left me infertile. The fear that hit me was as acute as the pain stabbing at my stomach.
After a lot more pain, waiting, drugs, and tests, it was decided that I would stay the night at the hospital (by then it was very late) and have an operation the next day.
I had never spent more than a matter of hours in a hospital before, and if I’m honest, that day was the most frightening day of my life.
I had surgery the next morning, which was a success – no, I’m not infertile – and ended up staying in hospital for three and a half days.
Breaking out the honesty again, it was truly among my worst experiences. Yes, my nurses, surgeons and doctors were (are) unbelievably kind, but my modesty, dignity, personal space and other synonyms thereof pretty much jumped enthusiastically out the window.
I don’t think I’ll need to say much more when I tell you the type of surgery I had is literally called “Invasive Surgery”
And, after all, I was just a young woman, in a foreign country that spoke a language I really don’t understand enough of.
So yeah, it wasn’t pleasant.
When I was released and reunited with my notebook, I thought I’d have a poem for every hour I spent in there.
But I didn’t want to write about any of it.
And even now, after all the hurdles I’ve clumsily climbed over, I don’t want to write about it.
I just want to forget it and move on. But I think a big part of me needs to accept what happened.
After all, you can’t run away from something when the evidence will remain on your stomach for the rest of your life, can you? No.
So I’m going to try my best.
Writing helps to process and heal things, so yes, write about it. I’m sorry to hear you had to go through all of this ❤️
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It really is the best medicine! Thank you so much ❤
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Thank you for sharing this. I really appreciate you sharing your story and experience.
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Thank you so much! That means so much to me to hear that ^ ^ ❤
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Firstly I do hope that your recovery is complete. I know that uncertainty when you go for a scan and are awaiting the ‘verdict’. In my case it was not so good and I have a form of lymphoma that cannot be cured but can be slowed a little. I learned to live for the joy of each day and to forget my condition. I hope that you will find joy and happiness in your own way 🙂
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I’m so shocked and sad to hear that!!! Your comments have become a joy to my days ❤
I am glad to hear that you are happy, though, because at the end of the day happiness is all that really matters ^ ^
I am well on the way to recovery, and though I fear the worst in dark moments, I'm hoping the road won't too rough in the long run. As for joy, I'm working on it 🙂
I wish you sunshine every morning, and the best days of your life in the coming years ❤
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Quite sorry to hear how unpleasant it’s been for you recently. I’ve not often gone to the hospital, Bluebell, but when i have, the only way I’ve been able to handle it is give up all hope of my pride surviving the experience.
May I ask what country you’re in? Just curious.
I’m in Colorado, near Cheyenne Mountain — which is a rather beautiful mountain on the edge of a rather dull town.
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Thank you ^ ^ I agree, the only way is to pretend it’s not happening until it’s over, then accept it!
Sorry, I’m super stingy about my location 🙂 but I’m in Europe ^ ^
I’ll look it up! Sounds really nice 🙂
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I am so very glad you are ok….
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Thank you 🙂
I recently went back for a check up, and everything is totally fine ^ ^
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